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 I can't overcome my feeling which is sleepy...
After finished classes, I slept for six hours,haha, and I'm still awake. My life cycle is so bad,,today is also I'll go classes without sleep, then, I'll sleep after classes..

What should I do??

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I can't ,I can't,,
Even though I wanna talk with him, I can't I shouldn't,,,

I just wanna know what he thinks, but it's difficult,,,
Just one thing which I can do is waiting, if he need me, he will text me although he doesn't love me ,

good night,

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I'm trying to break my characteristic because I have some bad points..
For example, what I do is what I want to do. It's sometimes good thing, but sometimes bad. If I'm child, it's good so it means I can say or decide definitely what I want to do.
However, I'm adult now. There are situation which I should stand what I want to do or adapt other parson's thought or plan.
When I decide what I will do, I usually avoid difficult or suffered thing. My thought is "Everything is Ok if I'm happy now." Even so, I have thought that I should see my future for two weeks. For example, I would have a exam the day after tomorrow. I was invited a party by my friends. In this situation, I always went to a party without hesitation. On the other hand, if I'm in this situation, I will choose to study. This is a simple example.

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What do I wanna do? What should I do?
I always ask myself these questions. I don't know why, but I tend to lose my goal easily,,, I mean if I have a goal, I should do everything to achieve that goal, yet I can't do that. On the way to attempt, I lose confidence of what I do.


I need help? No, from what to what is the thing I can depend on someone, I should solve by myself?

I don't wanna take advantage of someone's help, I mean I don't wanna use someone's help.
I wanna do everything by myself if I can do that,,but I can't.
How can I rely on someone? Who can I rely on?